Our paths may cross

"A man may dwell so long upon a thought that it may take him prisoner." -George Savile


Which is really code for, "stop-thinking-about-it-or-else-you'll-over-think-it". Or, "let-God-do-it". Making a thought your constant comfort may drown you in the unknown or the reality you have allowed into your mind and yours alone.


This quote only slightly reflects the mindset I have recently adapted and so far, life is going beautifully by following it. But like any good thing, the longer stick with it, the happier you'll be with the results. So I figure, if I'm already this happy a few weeks later, what in about a few months? Or a few years? There is so much of this journey called life to look forward too, it's indescribable.

sometimes all we need is prayer

Today was the first day of classes and all went really well. I love my professors, I'm getting closer to my roommates everyday and friendships are becoming stronger. However tonight, despite a wonderful day, I seemed to be in a funk. I just wasn't feeling myself.

So I wrote. I wrote my feelings of why I was upset at the night and how it worked out. When I told Nick I wasn't feeling like myself though and I really just needed prayer, he gave me just that. Called me and prayed with me over the phone. Prayed for the friendship I had given him, that my physical and mental pain would be washed away and that God would drive my actions. Until he said this, I didn't realize that I had left God out of my night.

I started to cry. I have put God in such control of my life and the moment I pushed him and his plan aside for one night, I felt in even less control. When God is steering my life, all is well. I'm happy and in a good place. Tonight made me realize how much I need God in my life. His plan for me is what makes me happy, makes me feel secure in myself and my love with Him.

So thank you God for this realization and for having friends like Nick who don't let me forget that you know what you're doing and I'll always be safe in your arms.

new beginnings

Moved in. New dorm, new roommates, new adventures, new challenges, new opportunities; so many new things my eyes are going to be opened up to over the next few months. Excited, though a general descriptive word, is definitely the right word to describe how I feel about this year.

Happy Days!

Today was one of those days where I just felt like everyone was happy to see me.

Example 1: Visiting the high school
I went in and first went to see Mr. Bly. He had me sit in his class and watch a movie clip with them and then him and I talked. Then I went to visit Mr. Connor and he seemed really happy to see me and was asking me questions about this coming year and giving me compliments. Then I went and saw Judy and her and I had a really nice conversation about growing up and how much you realize about yourself and the people you surround yourself with. Then I went and saw Mrs. Santos and she had me sit with her while she ate lunch so we could talk more. While at lunch with Mrs. Santos I saw Mrs. Nesbit and she, of course, was up to hug me in less than a second, asking me all about how excited I was to go back to school. It was just nice that none of them were quick to dismiss me and they all had time for me. I must have just come on a good day.

Example 2: Facebook
Everyone is all "when are you moving back? I can't wait to see you!" and trying to plan lunches. And then when I start to say stupid things to people, they think I'm hilarious. I know it's technology and they have time to think of a witty and respectful answer but hey, I can dream I'm funny.

Example 3: Skype!
I got to Skype with Josh tonight and we talked for like an hour which was really nice because even though I was tired, it was nice to know that we were both having fun talking to each other about random things both happy and serious.

I guess it's just days like today where I feel really lucky to have the people I do in my life. And when I say days like today, I really mean everyday.